Saturday, December 31, 2011

Sometimes, thinking back is not a bad thing, for me that is. Who would have thought i will be back liking her. While posting my previous post, i was thinking, how good will it be if i had forgotten about kit yi, but what made me forget her is me liking someone else whom i liked before.

I just have so much to say to you but i simply cant. For the reason you being attached already. I am so sorry that i lied to you so many times. After the talk we had yesterday, i realised that you are the only girl who knows me just by looking at my actions. Just like what you said, we do not even know each other for very long and only a few months back, we got closer. Sometimes, when face to face, i really want to hug you and tell you how much i love to be with you and how much i like you but you are already someone else's. I know i sound like a third party here but i am not that kind of person so i am holding back as much as i can so i will not spoil your current relationship. I do not want you to feel awkward with me like how the other and you became. I do not want to spoil the friendship that we are having now. You asked me on the phone if i like you or not, how am i suppose to tell you? I wil never know what will happen after i told you. We may not even be friends. I am so sorry that i answered you that i like you as a brother would to an older sister. To me, age does not matter in relationships. But not to worry, no matter what happens to you in the future even if you are married, you still have me as your brother. Even if no one wants you, and even if i am married, i will still take care of you like how a brother would to an older sister. You have my word, but provided you wont mind having me to tease you everyday.

The reason i will say until i want to take care of you is because i feel that we just have this mutual understanding of each other like how you always say. I hope one day, you will understand me like an older sister would to her younger brother. I sincerely hope you will end up being with man you most wanted and get together happily. I will be happy for you :D

I really have alot to say to you but i think its only here in my blog that i can say. Social webs are just too scary.

I LOVE YOU.

I guess i will only let you see this either after i had forgotten to like you or after i am attached.