Friday, February 17, 2012

The fact that i take care of you these few days is not because you are childish or immature like you said. Its alright to be childish at times, i do too at times. Its because I really think you need someone to take care of you and that person is away for 2 years and since i am with you, i shall take care of you. OK, so if you were to ask me, i would tell you that.

But, in my heart, i really dun mind taking care of you forever. You are not dumb or retarded or a moron. To me, you are just a typical girl who just needs a guy by your side. And, the truth is i want you to feel that i am able to take care of you as well.

the 15 days of loft has ended yesterday, with out of 14 nights, 10 nights with you. Trust me these 10 days, i really was very happy. Though the fact that i still cant have the courage to confess to you, but i guess you would have felt my love for you. I dun noe why until now you did not expose me but i wont force you to do so. I really feel the pain when i left you yesterday after dinner. I cant believe i teared when i reached lakeside mrt station, even when i was with ya yan. The separation between me and you really left a hole unable to be amend in my heart. Till i saw you again today, i was happy. But after fetching you home and and seeing you further away from me, i cant help but teared again. I am very serious this is not a crush or what, and that i really like you alot.

To be honest, you are the only one who can make me tear even in public which i will never expect me to do. Remembered i told you i broke down in loft? I broke down in front of Vincent. It was just out of control. I am sorry that i cant be with you. For the fact that, i dun wan to be a bastard to mess in the relationship between you both. I hope he can give you the happiness you always wanted. I am really contented to be the closest guy friend that you ever had.

I LOVE YOU.